I couldn’t make ends meet. I tried Red Lobster. I tried Wal-Mart. I tried all these places and I couldn’t make it. I couldn’t. So, I tried this gentlemen’s club, and, you know, I worked there, and it was just awful in those places. It was terrible.
I want to be the new Marilyn Monroe.
Nobody has ever respected me and done things for me and loved me. So when Howard (former husband J. Howard Marshall II) came along, it was a blessing. He is the only person in my life who does not care about what other people say about me. He truly loves me and I love him for it.
If I have another child, I doubt I’ll get married again. I don’t think men particularly want to be with me.
Living in a small town, I knew everybody and everybody knew me.
He’s comming to meet me on Sun. Cant wait!!… Please God let him love me!!… This could be it [followed by five happy faces]…. Hes going to publish my pictures Im so glad I didn’t sleep with him either!… I hate for men to want sex all the time. I hate sex anyway. (1992, diary entry as she prepares for a meeting with Paul Marciano, head of Guess.)
I want to be the new Marilyn Monroe and find my own Clark Gable.
I can’t eat more than six hundred dollars worth of food.
For some reason, people think I am this terrible person and it really hurts me to hear that. I am just doing the best I know how to.
I don’t understand why God took him and didn’t take me.
I did Playboy. There was an ad in the paper for playmates. Playboy called me and flew me to Los Angeles, and I was on the March cover of 1992.
I’ve been craving peanut butter-and-mayonnaise fried cheese sandwiches.
I just feel a connection with Marilyn Monroe. I just love her. I just completely feel what she went through.
I finally feel like I’m becoming somebody. I really think like I can do something. I just know I’m going to be an actress. I want it so bad.
I just know I’m going to be an actress. I want it so bad.
I never thought to ever ask for money. I was so stupid.
Vickie Lynn Hogan is my birth certificate’s name.
Marrying into money was not a good thing for me.
I am just so happy and thrilled and I am so glad Mr. Hefner chose me.
I wanted to become a model and an actress.
I’m sick of being accused of gold-digging. It just so happens I get turned on by liver spots.
It’s very expensive to be me.
Men don’t even ask me out. I can’t remember the last time I was asked out on a date, and I’m talking years here. I spend my life more and more alone.
It’s very expensive to be me. It’s terrible the things I have to do to be me.
I don’t have a boyfriend right now. I’m looking for anyone with a job that I don’t have to support.
A ghost would crawl up my leg and have sex with me at an apartment a long time ago in Texas. I used to think it was my boyfriend, and one day I woke up and it wasn’t. I was freaked out about it, but then I was, like, ‘Well, you know what? He’s never hurt me and he just gave me some amazing sex, so I have no problem.
I grew up poor. I had no money. My family was poor. There’s things I wanted to do and couldn’t. I was an abused wife. Just – there’s tons of things that I couldn’t even mention. And for me to come up and to have all of this fame and fortune, it’s just – it is a Cinderella story to me.
I was 23, and he was 86. I saw a very sick man. I just wanted to just talk with him. There was no physical attraction at all. He was very much attracted to me.
People are just so stupid.
I have been alone since my husband died. I stay in my home. I don’t date. It’s hard to date when you’re at home. Nobody knows you.
I didn’t know what Guess jeans were. I just shopped at Wal-Mart and Kmart and stuff like that.